And by she, I mean me. I mean, I’ve let these mountains of mine build all around me. It’s time to shove them aside and blaze on through. It’s GO TIME!
I’ve been in my head so much lately. I’ve been contemplating so many things, maybe like a mid-life crisis, without the crisis, just the pondering. My days are spent caring for the needs of so many other people, forgetting to take care of myself. While I love my everyday life, sometimes I feel like I’m just making it one day to the next, just raising these humans, keeping our home, and making sure all the schedules work out just right. I have joy, plenty of joy, but there are things missing. I hadn’t been able to put my finger on it. Maybe I still haven’t. But I have come to some realizations and I’m going to do something about them!
I have so much to say about what I’m about to take on and do for myself but it’s already after midnight, hours after the kids went to bed and I should have gone to bed myself. So I’m going to keep it short and sweet and then take a little more time tomorrow to fill in the blanks.
My nervous energy is trying to build these mountains, I don’t even know why I’m nervous! It’s first day jitters, I guess. My alarm is set for 4:40 am. FOUR FREAKING FORTY A.M.!! Yes, I have lost my mind. But it’s OK. I hate setting an alarm. I hate being awake that early. And not having my coffee first thing might just break me. But I’m going to have to be stronger than the negative things. I’ve been so inspired, so motivated, and I’ve found an amazing group of ladies who are challenging me and this funk that I’m in to get myself up, get the workout gear on, and CRUSH IT. This, this is going to be about me. For me. Just me. Awake before the crazy masses to take care of myself so I can better take care of them.
This is important.
These mountains need to get out of my way. I’m going to be strong enough to move them. Maybe not tomorrow, but soon enough.